wondering....

I just need to get this off my chest. It bothers me and I always end up in dreamland just thinking about it. I hope that nothing will happen. My imagination just goes wild.
During the Iman Lagun Sari Makan Event, I went up to greet all the directors after arriving. Teacher Suariati went up to Mr Adi and greeted him. She said the usual things that people do during Hari Raya. So after her turn, I went up to him and smiled. He took a glance at me. Then his eyes glanced up and down. I saw the movement of his eyes. It was uncomfortable, but I just continued smiling. I just said Selamat Hari Raya! after that, I ciao.

Then I went to Changkat CC recently. He arrived there… I was with a student I was in charge with and had just returned from a toilet visit. I decided to go in from the other entrance, where it wasn’t so packed with people. He looked at me from far, but I tot it was kinda stupid to just smile from far. I just went on my own way. I made my way to my seat, where unfortunately I had to sit beside Iqbal. He was in his naughty mood. I was running out of my patience just tolerating his nonsense. When Iqbal is in that mood, you can expect punches and even more nonsense. He laid down, pulling up his shorts. I had to repeatedly push him up to a sitting position. Mr Adi went to stand in the middle of the hall and see the performance. He looked around, and focused on us. I was talking to Iqbal. “ Iqbal! Don’t be like this, can you? Sit up please!” I said to him in frustration. And Iqbal sat up. We had to go up the stage for a dance performance later. I danced. I saw him look at my direction before being interrupted by other people.

I had a talk with mum recently. As she always listens to his time slot… she commented that there was a time he was being teased by other people. Such as being chased by other girls. He commented. He likes girls who wear scarfs….

From there, my heart just thumped. Been having uneasy feelings from then on…

I told myself repeatedly that it was just my imagination and coincidence. But my gut feelings tell me otherwise…..

But now, when I think about it, I think there are prettier girls than me. Maybe he just focussed on Yana.